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“Do I do it justice?” Connor asked, holding his arms out.

There was no answer, and he finally glanced up at his brothers and father. They were all staring back at him. “What? Did I button the vest up wrong or something?” He glanced down at the tux, but he couldn’t tell that anything was off. He looked back up again.

Only Callum wasn’t staring dumbly at him. “No, little brother,” he finally said, slapping a hand against Connor’s shoulder and squeezing slightly. “They’re just finally not ignoring the fact that you’ve actually grown up.”

Right. Sometimes he managed to forget that his whole family still thought of him as a little kid. He hadn’t chosen a grown up profession yet, just played around with his art. He didn’t think his family would ever see him as grown up, always the baby. As long at they let themselves forget that he hadn’t always been the baby.

Callum looked at him with sympathy, though. They’d stuck him in a box and it had taken him quite some time to break out of it, too. Then, Adrian stepped forward. “Well, since I’m the one who knows the most about justice, I can say that tux should be trying to do you justice not the other way around.” Adrian grinned then. “We’re going to make a fine picture standing up in front of that church. And I know fine pictures is something you know about, baby brother.”

Connor laughed then relaxed slightly. Maybe they were finally getting it after all.

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Today’s Just Jot It January prompt was “justice” by Barb. I had a couple different starting points pop into my head, but this is the one that stuck. Not sure if this will end up in the actual story or not, but they’re getting ready for Callum’s wedding.

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“Are you giving me an ultimatum?”

Ames blew out a breath and resisted the urge to just hang the phone up. Instead they took a deep breath and another, until they were sure their words would come out calm. “No, Mom, I’m just telling you what I need.”

“Camella.”

Ames ground their teeth. But, they didn’t respond to the name. Not until their mother sighed deeply on the other end of the line. “I’ve told you I don’t want to use that name.”

“But, it is yours. I don’t see the problem-”

“That’s the exact problem. You don’t see a problem disrespecting me and who I am. That’s why I don’t call and I don’t come home. Just because I am not who you and Dad assumed I’d be when I was born doesn’t mean I don’t deserve that respect. So, yes, if you can’t give it to me, I won’t call or accept calls from you. I’m sorry if you find that impossible to overcome.”

Ames hung up the phone and drew in a deep breath. They had done what they needed to, but it still hurt. But, they hoped the sharp ache once was better than the constant battering of disappointment in their family.

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Today’s Just Jot It January prompt was “ultimatum” by Itinerary Planner. I wasn’t sure I’d come up with something for this one. Of course, as soon as I had that thought, Ames started talking. So, I did manage to get something down anyway.

Ok, so the week wasn’t a complete busy. But, that’s something I have to keep reminding myself. Monday and Tuesday weren’t great. But, it picked back up for Wednesday and Thursday. I had all my writing goals met except the main project and plotting. But I figured I could get to both of those, or at least close, on Friday. Ha. Ha. Ha.

Thursday night I took the dogs out a little after nine. Figured it would only be a couple minutes, and we’d be back inside, so I didn’t take my phone or anything with me. Well, that would have been the case, except our screen door jammed. The knob would not turn. I pulled on it, tried to get it to turn, everything I could think of. It would not open. Both kids were asleep and husband was working. So, there was no way for me to get in the house. Thank goodness it was one of the days it was 50F, but it was also raining. My sweatshirt was wet from standing in it, fighting with the door. And my hand hurt from pounding on the window, trying to wake one of the kids up so they could let me in. Yeah, that didn’t work, either.

So, I opened the garage and figured I could at least get out of the rain. And I sat there, on a tote box. And I stood for a while. And sat back down. And made sure the dogs didn’t take off. And tried to open the door again. Then retreated back into the garage. Until 6 the next morning, when my daughter got up and I got her to let me in. I was cold, tired, and not in a very good mood. And I never even turned my computer on all day Friday. We went to see my sister-in-law in the morning and to the Moose club for our usual Friday night dinner. But other than that, I sat under my blanket on the couch and read. And I was in bed by 7:30. Slept for about 10 hours. Half of that is my usual amount of sleep.

And I think we got the knob fixed so it doesn’t do that again.

Color Code:

Monthly Goal Met/Finished

Weekly Goal Met

Progress Made

Nothing Done

Set Aside

Plotting:

  • Primary: Flames of Knowledge – Back Stories – Wrote Connor’s back story(1041 words) on Monday. Finished Ames’ back story(902 words) on Tuesday. Started antagonist’s back story Tuesday night, finished it Wednesday afternoon(661 words).
  • Secondary: Flames of Knowledge – Plot Summaries – Finished short summary(37 words), medium summary(109 words), & long summary(277 words)
  • Tertiary: Flames of Knowledge – Story Toolkit – started this Thursday afternoon. 15/20 sheets done
  • Stretch: Flames of Knowledge – Outline: Act 1
  • Stretch2: Green Hills & Smoky Fields1 – Outline: Act 4 – Started this Thursday morning. Finished it Thursday evening.
  • Stretch3: Green Hills & Smoky Fields2 – Brainstorm

Writing:

  • Primary: Green Hills & Smoky Fields – 1st draft – 9157/~25000 words, 3381 this week
  • Secondary: Side Projects – 5000 words – 2522/5000 words
    • Patrick & Sarah – 213/500 words
    • Tavin & Haiwee – 172/500 words
    • Roman – 287/500 words
    • Dougal & Shae – 252/500 words
    • Jacob & Matthew – 338/500 words
    • Mike & Fadil – 242/500 words
    • Hawk – 313/500 words
    • Sean & Braeden – 193/500 words
    • Melanie & Garren – 265/500 words
    • Desmund – 247/500 words
  • Tertiary: Jonas & Isaac – 15 pages – 7.5/15 pages
  • Stretch: By the Gun – 2500 words(will work on this when I finish Primary goal)

Editing:

  • Primary: Flames of Renewal – CP edits once I get it back
  • Secondary: Stained Blood – Beta edits as they come in
  • Tertiary: Protecting the Heart – Transfer to Scrivener – 4/9 chapters
  • Stretch: Melanie & Garren – revise & post to Patreon

Reading:

  • Primary: Read 20 books – 11/20

    • Brotherhood in Death(J.D. Robb) – Started this Wednesday afternoon. Finished this Sunday afternoon. Really enjoyed it.
    • Must Love Mistletoe(Christie Ridgway) – Started this Sunday afternoon. Finished this Sunday night. Enjoyed it.
    • The Ones Who Got Away(Roni Loren) – Started this Sunday night. Finished it Tuesday night. Loved it.
    • Private Reserve(Cathryn Fox) – Started this Wednesday afternoon. Finished this Wednesday evening. Liked it.
    • Sweet Reunion(Melanie Shawn) – Started this Wednesday night. Finished it Thursday afternoon. Found it ‘meh’. second book by this author I’ve felt that way about so I think I’m striking any more from the ‘to buy’ list.
    • Play On(Michelle Smith) – Started this Thursday afternoon. Finished it Thursday night. Loved it.
    • Hamilton’s Battalion(Rose Lerner, Courtney Milan, & Alyssa Cole) – Started this Friday morning. Finished it Saturday afternoon. Loved all three of the stories.
    • Going Too Far(Jennifer Echols) – Started this Saturday afternoon. At 50%
  • Secondary: Listen 5 books – 5/5
    • Reckless(Skye Jordan) – Started this in December. On Chapter 13/29
    • Trust the Focus(Megan Erickson) – Started this Friday morning. Finished it Monday morning. Love these books.
    • Focus on Me(Megan Erickson) – Started this Monday morning. Finished it Tuesday morning.
    • Out of Frame(Megan Erickson) – Started this Tuesday morning. Finished it Wednesday afternoon.
    • Overexposed(Megan Erickson) – Started this Wednesday evening. On Chapter 21/23

Social Media:

  • Primary: Just Jot It January – 12/31 posts
    • Pants – A bit with Connor dealing with a cousin who decides to be an ass. And Gio makes an appearance.
    • Coffee – A bit with Connor and his sister-in-law, Kayla.
    • Humiliate – A bit with Connor and his brother, Callum
    • His Eyes Shut – Combo of Just Jot It and Stream of Consciousness.
  • Secondary: Post 5 regular weekly posts – 9/21 posts
  • Tertiary: Post to Patreon 2x0/2 posts

Crafting:

  • Knit: Honeycomb Dishcloth – got the set up row and another 50 rows done.
  • Crochet: Lap BlanketThis is at about 31/40 inches

WeWriWa: “No Prison”

Welcome back to another visit with the Weekend Writing Warriors, the blog hop for anyone who likes to write. I’m still catching up from a night of no sleep(basically our screen door jammed when I was outside and couldn’t get back in with no one to let me in until daughter woke up in the morning and nowhere to sleep in the garage, but at least I was out of the rain for the night). But, I’m here with the next bit of Hawk’s story.

“You two heading out?” Icarus asked.

I glanced at Damon, and he looked bright suddenly. He needed this. Hell, we both needed this. “Thought you wanted us to stick around here,” I said, even though I didn’t want to argue if he was letting us out of here.

“I would,” Icarus said, “but the clubhouse is no prison, and I do not want to turn it into one.”

I saw the flash of old pain go through his eyes. He’d been in a cell before. It was part of why the freedom of our lifestyle meant so much to him.

So, are they going to head out? What will happen when/if they do?(I haven’t even gotten that far -I only have about another 550 words written past this). If you’ve read Into the Sun, you know what that last bit refers to.

With his eyes shut, Connor ran the pencil over the page in his sketchbook. It was an exercise he liked to do sometimes, especially when nothing else seemed to come for him. “Get out of your own way,” he muttered. It was what one art teacher had always told him he needed to do more of.

His hand kept moving, but he refused to let himself look at what he was doing. It might look like crap when he was finished, but he could usually pull something out of it. He only drew lines: long ones, short ones, curved ones. Everything else would wait for later, when he knew what he was creating.

Connor didn’t know how long it took but his hand was starting to ache when he set his pencil down. And he finally blinked his eyes open. He drew in a breath. Other than a few stray lines, it was right. Just right. He wanted to run right to his easel and start. But, he couldn’t do that right now.

Instead he kept staring down at the page. How had he not seen it already. It had been right there in front of him this whole time.

Get out of your own way. Yeah, that was exactly what he’d needed to do. In more than just one way, it seemed.

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Today’s prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday(and Just Jot It) was:

look to the publication (book, newspaper, permission slip from your kid’s teacher, whatever you find) closest to you, and base your post on the sixth, seventh, and eighth word from the beginning of the page.

I really hope using an ebook isn’t cheating. 😉 Since that’s what I’m currently reading, I opened Hamilton’s Battalion(a series of 3 romances set near the end of the Revolutionary war) and took the words from the beginning of Chapter 5 of “The Pursuit Of…” by Courtney Milan. (The whole line was: John could feel sleep tugging his eyes shut, fogging his brain).

Unlike Connor, I am not an artist. Though I do use the same technique when I’m writing sometimes(not by hand, because that would just be a mess). Sometimes I find the words come easier, though, when I’m not actually staring at the screen.

I skipped yesterday’s Just Jot It because I got stuck in the garage all Thursday night(screen door of our house wouldn’t open, so I had no way to get back in the house until daughter woke up Saturday morning). Needless to say, I did not feel like doing much at all Friday. Hopefully I won’t skip any of the others. And I think we got the door latch fixed so it won’t jam like it did Thursday night.

“Just stop it, Callum,” Connor said. “Are you trying to humiliate me?”

His big brother grinned at him. “I thought that was my job. It’s what Rian and Adrian always told me.”

“Well, it’s not,” Connor said, though he was fighting back a smile now. No matter what embarrassment Callum was trying to cause him, it was good to see his brother like this. He’d been clean for nearly three years now and was the happiest Connor could ever remember seeing him.

Part of the reason for that happiness came running over to them now. “Daddy,” Kaelin said, nearly throwing herself into his arms, “I want to go swimming, but Mommy said I had to ask you. She feels like a whale and is afraid she’ll turn into one if she gets in the water.”

Connor choked on a laugh, but Callum’s face softened as he turned to look toward where his fiancée sat. “What have I told you about repeating everything you hear?” Callum asked her.

“Grandma says you should stop saying things around me you don’t want me to repeat. It’s not my fault I’m a sponge.”

Callum’s lips pursed for a moment then he let out a breath. “Go get your stuff on. We’ll go swimming.”

Connor couldn’t help grinning at his brother as Kaelin ran off. “She so has you wrapped around her little finger.”

Callum didn’t deny it, only smiling. “They both do. And I wouldn’t change that for anything.”

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Today’s Just Jot It January prompt was “humiliate” by Jim Adams. The beginning of this conversation popped into my head when I read the prompt. I don’t have older brothers, but older sisters seem to believe the same thing.

Well, I’m considering above freezing to be a heat wave. I have fairly low standards, especially when it had been 0F this time last week. We’re supposed to have a couple days of 50s this week. That’s almost shorts weather around here.

My week has not started out too well. Over the weekend, I found a spreadsheet for a daily schedule. I figured I could start my day at 5, and I have 5 different hours for writing tasks. That first hour is for writing on my main project, the other four are picked randomly(between plotting, editing, side projects, & Jonas and Isaac). Well, Monday I slept in until well after 5. So, I ended up with less than half an hour to write. I woke up earlier Tuesday, but couldn’t seem to drag myself out of bed until right around 5. Computer didn’t want to start up at first. After I got it to, things were going okay. Then it decided to freeze up and restart on its own. I had some issues with getting it started up and it was the end of that hour by the time it did, but the words wanted out, so I ended up going into the next hour(which was set aside for chores and such). I didn’t hit my goal either of those days. Today I woke up at 4 and managed to get up. And so far computer is cooperating(although it looks like I’m back to using Microsoft Edge since Firefox refuses to open), so I’m hoping to get more words(I did, I did, I did!). More on that progress in a bit.

It’s Wednesday again, which means WiPPet time! *dances* *knee cracks* *sits back down* WiPPet Wednesday is a blog hop hosted by the wonder Emily Wrayburn where we share a snippet of a work in progress that somehow pertains to the date. I’m still sharing from Jonas & Isaac’s story. Today I have 7 paragraphs(1+8-1-1-0) from a little farther in the scene I’ve been sharing from. Things are getting…warm. 😀

“Jonas,” Isaac breathed, “are you going to kiss me or not?”

With a groan he couldn’t hold back, Jonas leaned forward and pressed his lips to Isaac’s. They opened immediately, but he didn’t plunge forward. Instead he traced Isaac’s lips with his tongue just as his thumb had moments ago. It was Isaac’s tongue that darted forward, catching Jonas’ and tangling them together.

Jonas moaned around it, feeling too much to put anything into words right now.

They finally pulled apart, both breathing hard and staring at each other. Then, Isaac leaned forward, gently caressing Jonas’ lips with his own. It didn’t have the intensity of that first kiss, but it had Jonas’ heart skipping more.

Isaac’s lips moved to his jaw then his throat as his hand touched his hip then slid over his thigh. “God, Is,” he murmured. “Your hands…” He couldn’t even form words as the desire twisted through him.

“Soft, I know,” and Jonas thought he detected bitterness in the words.

“No,” Jonas said, lifting Isaac’s head. “Capable of driving me fucking crazy.”

I wonder how many people have told Isaac hew has story hands, as if it’s an insult. Jonas certainly doesn’t see it that way.

Now for that progress so far this week:

Color Code:

Monthly Goal Met/Finished

Weekly Goal Met

Progress Made

Nothing Done

Set Aside

Plotting:

  • Primary: Flames of Knowledge – Back Stories – Wrote Connor’s back story(1041 words) on Monday. Finished Ames’ back story(902 words) on Tuesday. Started antagonist’s back story Tuesday night, finished it Wednesday afternoon(661 words).
  • Secondary: Flames of Knowledge – Plot Summaries – Finished short summary(37 words), medium summary(109 words), & long summary(277 words)
  • Tertiary: Flames of Knowledge – Story Toolkit – started this Thursday afternoon. 6/19 sheets done
  • Stretch: Flames of Knowledge – Outline: Act 1
  • Stretch2: Green Hills & Smoky Fields1 – Outline: Act 4
  • Stretch3: Green Hills & Smoky Fields2 – Brainstorm

Writing:

  • Primary: Green Hills & Smoky Fields – 1st draft – 7980/~25000 words, 2204 this week
  • Secondary: Side Projects – 5000 words – 2120/5000 words
    • Patrick & Sarah – 213/500 words
    • Tavin & Haiwee – 172/500 words
    • Roman – 287/500 words
    • Dougal & Shae – 134/500 words
    • Jacob & Matthew – 338/500 words
    • Mike & Fadil – 242/500 words
    • Hawk – 134/500 words
    • Sean & Braeden – 193/500 words
    • Melanie & Garren – 265/500 words
    • Desmund – 142/500 words
  • Tertiary: Jonas & Isaac – 15 pages – 5/15 pages
  • Stretch: By the Gun – 2500 words(will work on this when I finish Primary goal)

Editing:

  • Primary: Flames of Renewal – CP edits once I get it back
  • Secondary: Stained Blood – Beta edits as they come in
  • Tertiary: Protecting the Heart – Transfer to Scrivener – 3/9 chapters
  • Stretch: Melanie & Garren – revise & post to Patreon

Reading:

  • Primary: Read 20 books – 7/20

    • Brotherhood in Death(J.D. Robb) – Started this Wednesday afternoon. Finished this Sunday afternoon. Really enjoyed it.
    • Must Love Mistletoe(Christie Ridgway) – Started this Sunday afternoon. Finished this Sunday night. Enjoyed it.
    • The Ones Who Got Away(Roni Loren) – Started this Sunday night. Finished it Tuesday night. Loved it.
  • Secondary: Listen 5 books – 4/5
    • Reckless(Skye Jordan) – Started this in December. On Chapter 13/29
    • Trust the Focus(Megan Erickson) – Started this Friday morning. Finished it Monday morning. Love these books.
    • Focus on Me(Megan Erickson) – Started this Monday morning. Finished it Tuesday morning.
    • Out of Frame(Megan Erickson) – Started this Tuesday morning. On Chapter 11/21

Social Media:

  • Primary: Just Jot It January – 10/31 posts
    • Pants – A bit with Connor dealing with a cousin who decides to be an ass. And Gio makes an appearance.
    • Coffee – A bit with Connor and his sister-in-law, Kayla.
  • Secondary: Post 5 regular weekly posts – 6/21 posts
  • Tertiary: Post to Patreon 2x0/2 posts

Crafting:

  • Knit: Honeycomb Dishcloth – got the set up row and another 36 rows done.
  • Crochet: Lap BlanketThis is at about 31/40 inches

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