Even though I did my check-in yesterday, today is actually the final day of the challenge. Over the last 80 days, I realized I need to not be so hard on myself and I need to reevaluate how I measure my success. I thought my goals at the beginning of the round were attainable, but really they were rather lofty.
My goals were:
1.) Finish Serial Neighbor by 7/22(maybe sooner). This could take anywhere from 10-30K more words, which I’m hoping is on the lower end of that range. I’m going to increase my daily word count by 100 words a week each of those 3 weeks, so I’ll be trying to write 2200 words a day by the time I finish it.
Achieved: Finished on 7/13.
2.) Map out/outline the sequel(which I did not know was going to exist until about a week ago) by the end of July. I realized my secondary character had a story to tell as well, and there’s not enough time in this one to tell both.
Achieved.
3.) Write at least 56K words(for Camp Nanowrimo) on the sequel by the end of August and another 30000(to hopefully finish it) by 9/22.I will still be increasing my word goal until I reach 2500 a day.
Not Met. Only wrote 11,658 during the month of August & less than 4000 in September.
4.) Write 1 flash fiction piece a week, for a total of 12, using prompts from Writing Fix, to be posted here every Tuesday.
Not met. Have only written 3 & only posted 1.
I am planning on joining in on the next round, but my goals are definitely going to be different. Going to use this break between rounds to evaluate just what my goals should be and how I am going to achieve them.
And now, in honor of seeing something through(even if I didn’t do everything I wanted to), another flash fiction piece. This one came in at under 1000 words on the first draft & didn’t really see any polishing. With these short pieces, I pretty much follow where the story leads even if it wasn’t where I thought it would go at the beginning. This is the second one I wrote, and I’m still not sure I’m happy with it but I’m not sure why.
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The floorboard creaked. I stopped short, my ears straining to listen for an accompanying sound. When the house remained silent around me, I let each muscle slowly relax. But, I kept my ears alert for any other sounds as I moved deeper into the darkness. I knew every inch of this house, including where each loose floorboard was and could move silently even with no light. So I knew that creaky floorboard had not come from me. But, it was an old house and made many noises during the dark hours.
I made my way down the hallway, my eyes having already adjusted to the darkness. The first room I came to was the study. Now I took my penlight out to help speed my search. I went to the desk first but did not find what I was looking for there. So, I moved on to the shelves of books along one wall. I knew I could not get out with everything that had once belonged to me. So, even though my heart ached from the loss, I had to leave all my old friends sitting there. I moved on, still searching for what had been taken from me.
My light swept over it and I had to bring it back again. There it lay on the floor, shattered into tiny pieces, just as I thought my heart had been. I felt it harden now though as I bent down and picked up the wooden frame that had once held a moment in time. I brushed a stray piece of glass from the photograph.
As my heart hardened, so did my resolve. I lifted the photograph from what was left of the frame and ripped it in pieces as easily as I had been ripped from his life. I let the pieces fall to my feet and moved past them with as much thought as he had when he moved on without me. I moved on to the safe I knew was in the corner of the room. As long as the combination had not been changed, I would soon have what I came for.
I knelt in front of the metal box and pressed the set of three numbers on the keypad. I heard the click as it unlocked and swung the door open. I flashed my light inside it, and there it was sitting on top of the papers that were so important to him. I reached in and slipped the ring back onto my finger where it had rested for so many years. “Taking this from me didn’t change anything,” I murmured. “You’re still my husband, and always will be, no matter what words are said.”
I could not see the look those words set off in my eyes, so did not know I had already passed the point of return to sanity. I should have left then, but my light glinted off the barrel of the revolver in the safe. My hand closed over it, remembering he always kept it loaded in case it was needed. “I just want to scare him,” I told myself. “Let him see what it is he lost.”
I moved back across the room, leaving the safe hanging open. This was not why I had come here, but now that the thought was planted in my head, I could not change my path. I made my way down the hallway, keeping the gun at my side and shutting my light off once again. I had traveled this path so many times in the years I had shared with him. I did not need to see where I was going. My feet knew the way.
The bedroom door was open, as he never liked to sleep with it closed. So many memories flashed through my head as I stepped into the room. We had once shared this room, that bed over against the far wall. And how many others had he shared it with when he was professing his love to me? I felt as if my body was burning as these thoughts tumbled in my mind. I pulled back the hammer of the gun as I stepped closer to the bed, any thoughts of turning back now gone.
But, when I reached the side of the bed, I only saw one body, and even without the moonlight shining through the window, I would have known it was not my husband. But, I could imagine the pale, smooth skin sliding over his body and saw it almost as if it was happening right in front of me. With that image in my mind, I felt as if my heart was exploding in my chest. I lined up the barrel of the gun with the woman’s head, remembering all the lessons my husband had once given me when teaching me to shoot. “He would have done the same to you eventually,” I whispered as I moved my finger to the trigger. “You’ll thank me for this.”
Before I could take a shot though, I heard the sound of a shotgun shell being pumped into position for a shot. Then, the voice I had always loved to listen to say, “I knew you would come eventually. I’ve been waiting for you.”