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5/19 – Not Your Mom

“I hate you.”

“I know you don’t mean that, Patrick. You’re just upset right now.”

“You make me upset. All the time. Every day. I hate you.”

“That’s not true. You just need to calm down.”

“I don’t hafta do anything. You can’t make me.”

“No, I can’t. But, you are starting to scare Alison. You don’t really want to scare your baby sister, do you?”

“Half sister. She’s your little brat.”

“Now, that is enough, Patrick. I know you love your sister. I don’t know where this tough act is coming from, but it’s not you.”

“You don’t know anything about me. As soon as you got my dad, you stopped pretending to care.”

“You know that isn’t true either. I love you, Patrick, as much as I do your dad or Alison.”

“Heard that before. Why don’t you just skip out now? I know you want to.”

“Sit down, Patrick.”

“Why should I?”

“I’m going to put Alison down for a nap then we’re going to talk.”

“I don’t wanna talk to you.”

“Then, I’m going to talk, and you’ll listen. Now sit at the table.”

***

“I’m a little surprised you listened.”

“Took you long enough.”

“You know your sister always wants just one more hug. Hard to deny that sweetness. Look, I know I’m not your mom.”

“Thank God for that.”

“Why…I know you’re upset, but why would you say that, Patrick? What have I done to you?”

“Don’t cry. Sophia. Jeez, I’m sorry.”

“You told your dad you didn’t care if I joined your family. What’s changed your mind, Patrick?”

“Nothing.”

“Then, why are you so angry with me all the time? Why don’t you want me to be here?”

“Didn’t say that.”

“You just said you don’t want me to be your mom. What else could that mean?”

“That I don’t want you to be her. I hate her. I hate her so much it hurts. I hate her, hate her, HATE HER.”

“Don’t say that, Patrick. She’s still your mom.”

“SHE LEFT US. Said she’d come pick me up later, and she NEVER CAME BACK.”

“You were three, Patrick. I’m sure-”

“That doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten. I know what she did. I’m the one who was there, not you. She didn’t come back, she didn’t want me. How long ’til you don’t want me either? I don’t wanna hate you like I hate her.”

“I’m not leaving, Patrick. I’m never going to leave you and your father. There will never come a time when I don’t want to be a part of your family. I promised your father forever, and I don’t break promises. Do you understand?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“Good. Now, how about we finish this homework? Your teacher said you were struggling with it, but I know you can figure it out.”

***

“Come in, Dad.”

“How’d you know it was me from just a knock. And do not roll your eyes at me, Patrick.”

“You’re the only one who knocks like that. And dinner’s not ready yet, so it wouldn’t be Sophia.”

“She said you two had a discussion today.”

“Sure, just sit on my bed, Dad. Not like I’m on it or anything.”

“Enough with the smart mouth, Patrick. Tell me what’s going on.”

“Nothing. She kept on me about doing that stupid assignment Mrs. Archer gave me. I’m the only one who got it. I didn’t wanna do it, and I got upset.”

“That’s not it, Patrick. Sophia told me what you said.”

“Snitch.”

“She’s a lot prettier than most of the snitches I deal with.”

“That’s not funny, Dad.”

“Sure it is. When you’re a cop. Look, Patrick, I know-”

“You don’t know anything. You’re not the one she got tired of.”

“Your mother walked away from me too. And I was angry for a long time. I almost didn’t give Sophia a chance because of it. I’m not saying you shouldn’t be angry with her. You have every right to be.”

“I’m not angry. I hate her.”

“You shouldn’t.”

“But,-”

“I’m not saying she doesn’t deserve it, or that you should just forgive what she did. But, carrying that hate does nothing to her. The only one it’s going to hurt is you, Patrick. You need to stop letting her do that.”

“How?”

“God, I wish I could give you an easy fix for it. You just have to move on. Let Sophia in. She wants to be a mom to you, Patrick, not just your stepmom. It doesn’t mean she’ll leave you, too. You need to put that out of your head. And you know you’ll never be rid of me, right?”

“Yeah, Dad, sure.”

“I saw those eyes rolling again. Come on. Dinner should be ready soon.”

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